Kate is phasing out napping. I'm a little bummed because Hannah is starting preschool next week I was hoping she would come home utterly exhausted and sleep in the afternoon. But, if Kate is not sleeping I will not be able to rest myself. One day I will catch up on sleep...one day. A perk to Kate not napping though is that she and I will get some nice quality time together, if I can manage to stay awake. The other night at dinner, we were eating outside and I looked at Rachel Lee playing on the grass. I then glanced back at Kate and said, "Please eat some more grass." "What?!" She asked. I meant to ask her to eat more rice, but in my mind everything gets mixed up these days. Thus the need to sleep more. And the need to babble on the blog a little.
Speaking of preschool, I can't believe that this is the beginning of school phase for us. Although it's just twice a week that Hannah will be going to school, there is still lunch to be packed, kids to be carted out the door at 8:00, and, and this is the big one for me, I will have to say good-bye to Hannah for FOUR full hours. It will be weird here without her lively and energetic personality asking to play games, read books or get her something to eat. Again, I am looking forward to some quality time with Kate since Rachel Lee usually naps during that time, but I will sure miss having Hannah as well. Can't a mom have her cake and ice cream too...or more appropriately, Kate and Hannah Scream...yeah, that was a bad one...
And since I am thinking about school I often find myself wondering what kind of student Hannah will be. Wither her social nature I think she will quickly make friends. I also see her being liked by her teachers. I know I will often hear at conferences that she needs to focus more, but then I did not develop a lot of focus in my life until I met Jeff. He was actually the inspiration to my academic success.
I was in high school, totally worried about who was dating who, who was saying what, and totally, totally neglect what class I had to be at and when. Jeff and I started dating, and he found out that I was getting a D in math and said, "You shouldn't be getting a D." He then worked with me a little and I got an A instead...my mom said, "Jeff is good for you. He keeps you grounded." Hmm...not sure I understood at the age of 16 what she really meant, but he is good for me. He does keep me focused and grounded. The grounded one that motivates me.
Which is also sometimes exhausting for me. After a week with the girls, Saturday is my day to unwind and have some extra support. He as the motivator, is ready to do any and all activities. So most Saturdays we hit the park, head to the pool (or beach), return for naps and then garden, play outside, run errands and throw in a couples loads of laundry, BBQ and go for a walk. Phew...no wonder on Mondays I crash! What would an ideal Saturday look like for me? Sleeping in, coffee, chatting and strolling around aimlessly somewhere cool, naps and then dinner out somewhere. Maybe I could cut the strolling around part out, but then I might just look too lazy.
Which brings me to a different thought. I am lazy. I really don't like doing much, and I will usually settle for meeting the standard. It's not that I am lazy because I don't do stuff, it's just that I don't want to do stuff. I think I could be perfectly happy with a house cleaner, a chef, and a nighttime nanny. One thing I do want to do and that is take care of my kiddos, which is why I enjoy being home with them so much. Are they my purpose? Maybe, but I think I am the type of person that doesn't need a purpose. Which is why I never finished reading The Purpose Driven Life. I am not purposeful, nor driven.
I should list the books that I have never finished...or the projects that I have never finished. Let's see, there was scrap booking, beading, knitting, sewing. I'd still like to try to crochet since I have a bunch of yarn that I never used for my knitting projects.
Finally, after all this typing, Kate and Hannah have fallen asleep. YAY!! Now to go get some rest myself while baby hopefully sleeps a little longer.
20 minutes later baby woke up just to fall right back to sleep in my arms. This is one crazy, tired, loveable life.
3 comments:
Sarah, I just have to say I sure don't think you are lazy. Maybe you feel lazy because with all the running around with your 3 girls you really just want to rest- but you sure don't live a lazy life! You always seem to go above and beyond for your girls and certainly don't just get by.
I agree with Erin. You totally rock and you're raising some really beautiful little people. I miss you and wish we could have girls' night out together. : )
I can't believe you call yourself lazy.. that is the largest load of bull honky I have heard in a long while. I have seen you put SO much extra effort into being an outstanding mom. I can't even dream of being as productive as you one day. Girlfriend, you need to shut it!! Just get some more sleep. You're crazy!!
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